I'm going to share some personal information, wherever I should or not probably not. But I was quite active in the forum when it was started, Scott grabbed me from spiceworks at the time and I quite liked how active this community was getting from the start, I was posting quite a lot a couple years ago, I've been quite quiet the last year and a half. I've suffered depression and anxiety since my early twenties but always loved escaping my thoughts by putting this energy into learning and testing, I've worked for big corporation, I've done sub contracting, I believe my knowledge is very broad. I've always loved computers with my first computer being an 808x IBM with the 5 and a quater floppy disks with dos 3.0 and use to play with gw-basic I believed what it was called at the time. My uncle worked in london at the time when I was 7 years old and that was my first ever pc....I was addicted. I had problems in my child hood and was constantly on the pc to escape outside life in general. Anyways more from the early 90's I managed to secure jobs in computer shops mainly fix and build. then when the industry changed years ago with mobile internet and tablets I put effort into learning basic networking and windows servers. I'm glad I did this steps in the mid 00's as most fix and repair computer shops were closing, anyway the basic point is I've always put my energy and effort into constantly learning new things. but moving on in my 20's I was drinking a lot, diagnosed with depression and anxiety which I battled without medication. but a year and a half ago my partner of 8 years run off with someone else and after that I moved, I was down, had not intrest in using a computer, didn't even have a desk anymore. I now take medication daily as I have been diagnosed with Personality disorder. But now im trying to work on things, last month I brough a desk, setup my monitors and desktops and started slowly getting involed with using the computer more. I't was only last year that I didn't want to be here anymore but I'm glad I've finally got my intrest back into turning my pc on again. I've focused on linux for the last couple of years by reading and using labs. I'm getting the gist of the command line. I still get days where I'm too tired and cant be bothered to sit at my desk, but I believe my intrest is coming back slowly. I 've loved working with computers and it was a shock that I stopped touching one for a year and a half. I feel like I want to explain this to the community as mental health is not discussed enough, especially with men. I feel like a failure sometimes and feel useless but my I know I underestimate my computer knowledge. I just feel it can be a lonely place sometimes sitting on the pc and just reading and testing new things.....I don't want to make anyone feel awkward with this post, but I feel I need to let out how important computers are to me but depression took over the last year and a half and I couldn't bare touching one...
I know everyone has to face their demons. But Im trying to get better and I think setting my desk back up is that little step forward.......Very deep I know, but wanted to post this....
